FINALLY got my period and finally can get back to planning and structuring my life. Bad news is the transfer date changed (not surprising, but still disappointing.) So I have to tell my boss that my FTO day I asked for is now changing. He is going to think I'm a freak. For the retrieval my date changed several times, and I haven't told him what I'm going through, so he just must think I'm a psycho flake.
Transfer date is now set for Monday, September 19. The other bad part of that is now I have to take two days off instead of one, so I will have to have bed rest Monday and Tuesday.
I will officially be old on the transfer date - 28. I am starting to feel like 30 is coming faster than a freight train, and to me if I don't have a baby by the time I'm 30 I will lose it. I know women have babies later and later in life now, but that doesn't make me feel better. I just need to see my future self with a baby and know that it will work out. It's this whole unknown that is just so darn depressing. Not knowing whether or not I will get a biological child right now has put me in a dark place, and if I could just find out that yes, I will have a biological child, it would make all of this heartache a little more bearable.
So now countdown to the FET is on! T minus 22 days. Wednesday begins estrogen patches and Lovenox along with the Lupron.
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